UNITY....OR WAS IT.......

one propaganda that was being into the mind of the new comers of the hostel was one of HOSTEL UNITY.......dont know who came up with this idea.....but a decent piece ....one which wouold have made JOESEPH GOEBBLES proud.........every day and every night the seniors would come to us and shoot the usual shit.......eat, party, fight, play,and even shit together......the hostler is your brother they would say..........stick by him and all........
quite a few of us were taken into this hogwash.....we felt on to pof the world...people capable of taking on the world........
people would say that i am speaking loads of shit, but the fact of the matter is it was no show of strength or brotherly love for your fellow hostler but more of a power struggle, a game of one upmanship....to show i ws the prefferd of the seniors...that my writ will work around here.....and the seniors were the ones feeding the fire......putting up juniors against each other.....
just to quote an instance.......all were new to da hostel...the first birthday....dat too da hostelopener........evrybdy had a blast....njoyd, got wet lyk a heroin of a B-grade flick.....felt lyk heaven......but throughout the 4 years i didnt see the birthday of each and everybody being celebrated in the same way.....apart from ofcourse of a select few......
the unfortunate demise of one of our batchmates and the hospitalisation of a select few showed me the contempt some harboured against the majority....the frequent fights that people got into inside the hostel lifted the veil off the ugly face of the true hostel unity......
true to say that there were deep friendships developedduring this period which each and evry one of us cherishes....but they were not spread horizontally through the strata of the hostel uniformally.......instead of a single hostel....small ghettos started to form.....luckily for me i didnt find a place in ane of these ghettos....thank god for that!
i belive that sucha large group of people cannot co-inhabit a small place without fights and tensions....but when we analyse the reasons for these fights..we see that there was no possibilty of a hostel unity in the first place.......the select few, chosen by the seniors to carry on their legacy had an air of arrogance about them, as if they wid always remain in the hostel....that the world was their keep....stupid fools ..........!! the other larger section of the hostel, always harboured contempt and indifference towards the "few".......
probably i hurt myself more with this notion of mine which had sprouted in my brain in the first year that such a unity could actually exist.........an emotional fool i was......but i understood it pretty early as almost everyone did upto the end of our stay there..............
needless to say that this bullshit is still being fed at the channel gates of the first year hostel still now and will be fed till the walls of the hostel stand...........
"ALLEGEDLY STUBBORN"........AM I????